Back Again

Well its been like 4 years since I posted my first blog and since then John and I have gotten married.  We tied the knot March 21st 2015. We have had our 1 year anniversary.  It was not easy and still not easy but like everyone said "marriage isn't easy". John and I continue to go to church and serve. We have yet to make prayer a constant thing which we know we need to seriously work on that. John and I are planning on going to  Virginia Beach for our Honeymoon. Its nothing big but it will get us away from work for a week. The wedding was very eventful, our wedding took place in our Richmond campus and the reception took place at John step dad job at the Holiday Inn. My dress almost took down the flower gazebo behind the wedding party table, the church was kinda hot, all of the ladies in my wedding party got along, my cousin kept my hair nice. There was a bit of confusion when it came down to the food and the toast but it all worked out well. John family was the most anti social through the entire wedding. The kids had more fun than all the adults put together. The groom party hung out. My parents well were my parents, John mom was her normal self. When it came around to certain relatives of John taking photos, they were not happy having to take a picture with me. I'm not considered family to his family. John and I found out after the wedding one of John uncle's didn't even want to be at the wedding. Well lets move forward well this past march 21 we celebrated our 1 or anniversary.  My parents are doing well. My uncle John is not doing so well but he is hanging in there trying to get better, my aunt(his wife) is holding up well and my cousin Jerome is dating a nice girl and he is being strong for his mom. John and I are going to continue to work on our marriage everyday.

I Feel Left Out

I'm 26 years old and I live with my parents and my aunt, uncle and cousin. I'm engaged to the best man in the world, I'm also a student taking up Medical Assistant. With all that I feel left out, when I'm around my own family I feel left out they seem like they have more fun when I'm not at home. They never want to spend time with me when I'm at home. Then when I'm with the fiance it seems like I'm in the way, he doesn't pay that much attention to me like he use to especially since my birthday. I love him, but it hurts that he just acts like I'm just a friend just chilling at his house. I seriously wish that he tells me what he wants from me and then when he takes me home at night it seems like he is happier when he gets back home. I feel so left out with my family and unloved with him. The only time I laugh now is when I'm at school. I just had to vent to get this feeling out. He also claims to have conversation for days but when we on the phone he says nothing, and when I start talking he falls asleep.